Spicydisaster13

MIA

So it’s been a while since I’ve posted. I’ve been MIA for a bit due to depression. I stopped taking medication in the summer because I was ok. Then once October rolled in, it came back and slapped me in the face. Was put on a different medication that was ok at first… Then itContinue reading “MIA”

What is your mission? To continue waking up everyday! 🙏🏻

😫

Coworker is an extremely clingy, touchy, needy and boundary breaking guy, and it’s been going on for over 2 years. It started out as a crush, then infatuation, now it seems obsessive. He’s aware his feelings are “unrequited”…GOOD! He doesn’t like my husband, but will talk to him here and there. He seems jealous ofContinue reading “😫”

What do you listen to while you work? Sometimes it’s a Metal/Rock playlist on Spotify…on my phones speaker, AirPods are a no no in case a customer asks a question.

Loss

I guess you never know what real loss is until you lose a parent. It’s the worst feeling ever. I think I’m lingering in between Anger (stage 2) and bargaining (stage 3). It’s so fresh, the pain. It’s a brand new hurt. A feeling I wouldn’t wish on anyone. Dreams and memories keep me company,Continue reading “Loss”

Coma

The light dims quickly, I can hear you. I feel your touch but can not move. I dream, a dozen different dreams that seem so real. Beeping. I can’t hear you now. I can’t feel you now. Tears. I feel tears. I dream some more. The dreams are intense. I want to stop them butContinue reading “Coma”

Mom life

Hey mom, what’s for dinner? It’s apparently something that one of the 3 kids won’t want. 🍽 Hey mom, can you send me some money? I’m an ATM. 💵 Hey mom, can you come here for a minute? I obviously just sat down after working myself to death. 🏃🏼‍♀️ Hey mom, we need milk. AfterContinue reading “Mom life”

One word

What is one word that describes you? Insane

Oops

Did you ever send a text that was meant for your significant other to someone else, accidentally? Well it’s the first time it happened to me today. And of all the people that I accidentally sent it to was the guy who has a huge crush on me. Now I know I’m not going toContinue reading “Oops”

Puff and Sleep

It’s a Saturday night and what do I do? I puff and go to sleep. Not because I don’t have anything to do, but because I work on Sunday! I know the dreaded Sunday that should be fun day, just not for me! But this is life and it can’t be all “fun&games”.

Me

I was born without a filter. Growing up in the 80s-90s I learned how to deal with shit real fast and take no shit from anyone. Lies will always hurt more than truth but truth is always best, even if it’s brutal. I’ve been through so much shit I probably should’ve died 20 times orContinue reading “Me”

Dumbfuckery

Why do people continue to be stupid and annoying every single day of the week? Can we have one day off to breathe a sigh of relief before jumping right back into it? It’s too much to ask or comprehend, I’m aware. I don’t understand how some people can go to the same place everyContinue reading “Dumbfuckery”

Superstitious

Are you superstitious? No. I have two black cats and a 13 (favorite number) tattoo.

Still kicking

Write a letter to your 100-year-old self. Dearest spicydisaster, remember all that dumb shit you did in your younger years and didn’t die?! Well keep that shit up. You’re doing great.

Ugh! People

Me personally, I work in retail…Which I don’t understand why I torture myself with stupid customers. Maybe I’m just a glutton for punishment. Who knows. But there’s been many times, MANY that I just want to say “are you fucking kidding me” right to their face. But no, I hold it in liked the trainedContinue reading “Ugh! People”

Saddest day

Describe the last difficult “goodbye” you said. My grandma. I went to see her while she was in the hospital. She just wasn’t feeling too good. She said she was ready to go. I didn’t want to hear that. When I left I said I would see her later. The next day was mother’s day.Continue reading “Saddest day”

Crazy

I understand that there are people in this world who are crazy (not the good kind), and there are people in this world who attract the crazies (still not the good kind). But if we can limit it to one at a time that’d be awesome! So as I mentioned in my first post, loveContinue reading “Crazy”

Everything happens for a reason

Do you believe in fate/destiny? I believe that everything happens for a reason. Good or bad. So if you want to call it fate/destiny go ahead.

Invisible

The worst part of life is being ignored. But not just any kind of ignored. I’m talking invisible. Like someone who you know and chat with suddenly doesn’t even acknowledge you’re there. Or you could be sweeping the damn floor and someone walks right in front of you, stepping in the pile. That’s so fuckingContinue reading “Invisible”

LIFE

Never stop doing what you love just because someone who you love doesn’t like it. Never settle for second best, even if you have to wait forever. Never give up on your dreams, even if it’s just a daydream. Never forget that you are special in your own way. Never let someone else tell youContinue reading “LIFE”

Emotions

Life is an emotional rollercoaster with lots of turns and loop de loops. It can be wild and fun or scary as hell. Sometimes, you get sick of it and give up or go for another turn. We live our lives like we’re trying to please everyone. But are we pleased with ourselves? Do youContinue reading “Emotions”

Nightmares

The scariest part of dreaming is the fact that we can create a story and play it out for only us to see. Whether we remember it fully or not a part of it is still lingering in our mind.

Difficult encounter

Did you ever have an encounter with a coworker who wanted more than friendship? Even if you were married to someone and they knew deep down inside that you would never stray, even though they wished you would. It’s frustrating! To you, you two are just friends/co workers and nothing more. But to them, youContinue reading “Difficult encounter”